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Today

Today is not the ideal day to change my life...

I overslept.

Aiden is sick.

The pinched nerve in my back is making me crazy.

Mom is meeting her oncologist for the first time and I can't help but worry.

It is cold and grey out (high of 46? no thank you...)

I am once again behind on laundry and dishes, and somehow even though we rarely buy new stuff these days all my junk drawers and spaces are overflowing.

Nothing is organized... I am tired... it would be SO much easier to start tomorrow.

BUT...

Tomorrow will be exactly the same.

Except worse, because one more day will have slipped by... taunting me and calling me a failure.

So today, I am starting fresh.

I am taking the first step to dig myself out of this hole that I fell into a month ago.

A month is too long. Way too long.

I need to reclaim the joy I had found before cancer crept into the picture.

I need to not let all the hard work I put in over 5 months of building healthy habits be for nothing.

I need to trust my God to fulfill every promise I am quick to share with others who are struggling but slow to claim for myself.

It is time to fight...

and ready or not I start today.

I was looking for a photo for this post and came across this one... this is why I am so determined... this sweet little angel.
I know that God will give me everything I need to give this little boy the very best mama he can have.
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3 comments

  1. You can do it Branson! I have so much faith in you!

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  2. you can do it. one day at a time. one moment at a time. hugs, lady.

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  3. Branson, you truly inspire me with your love and devotion to God.... your faith... your desire to live right. I get so caught up with "life" sometimes, that my daily study is the first to get left out. Then my prayer life starts to suffer.

    I'm so sorry you're going thru all of this with your mom. I have added her to my prayer list. Within 2 weeks.... 3 of my friends' mothers were diagnosed with cancer (i hate even typing that word, ugh).... so sorry you are going thru this. Love and hugs. xoxo

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