Today A and I hit the walking trail and I jogged some intervals. It never fails that every time I go jog because I actually WANT to I laugh inside at what my high school gym teacher would think. I have been overweight for most of my life, and let's just say that gym class was not my favorite. However, over the past few years I have told Matt countless times that someday I want to be a runner. In the past it has always been one of those crazy like "someday maybe I will be an astronaut" statements, but I don't know... lately I think it might actually happen!
I am coming up on a month of counting calories with My Fitness Pal and working out daily (other than the two days I missed due to hurting my back changing a tire this week, haha), and even more shocking I actually bought a scale! I have never owned a scale, and I swear I was having palpitations when I opened the box... but you know what? It isn't so scary! In fact, watching that number drop is pretty awesome. I am down 16 pounds, but I have a long way to go.
What excites me most is that I can't help but feel that this might actually be the time that I start and never stop. That I finally beat this struggle with weight once and for all! And I am pretty sure I know why... I am approaching things differently this time. Not only am I starting on a spiritual level and including God in this process, but I also have the biggest motivation yet... a very active little boy to chase! I want to be the mom that is out playing tag with her kid without looking like she could fall over at any moment from exhaustion. That right there is my goal.
I have been watching the biggest loser for motivation (don't laugh) and one of the contestants said his goal was to lose the weight before his kids were old enough to realize he was fat. I get that. I want the same thing. And you know what... I don't have any doubts that I can do it this time! I have never been able to say that before. It feels good...
Thursday, May 10