A Life Lived in Tension

Wednesday, January 26

That's a pretty ominous blog post title! It is just what popped into my head while I was contemplating my struggle with technology. I have really been thinking about it a lot lately. I laughed when I logged on here and realized that I missed what seemed to be a yearly tradition of posting once a year in November last year. Clearly I have never regained any kind of blogging momentum. I haven't even been on instagram for quite a while now, at least not until this morning. It has certainly been a season of being more unplugged for me.

Being unplugged is certainly not a bad thing. The beauty of building relationships over the years is that many are not confined to a blog or social media platform. I have found some truly wonderful friendships that continue outside my sharing publicly online. However, I have learned over the years that I am really just not good at any kind of documenting life unless it involves a computer keyboard... or at least a phone app. I miss being able to look back on life easily. 

I have said many times over the years that my whole goal for doing things like instagram is so that I will have that visual reminder of how beautiful life can be when I am going through a less-than-beautiful time. So often I have felt like I was at my limit with frustration and discouragement, but looking at that little grid of photos of the joys God has placed in my life pulls me out of the darkness for the moment. There is power in focusing on the good things. 

And yet... I am continually questioning if being online is actually good for me. There is such a fine line between connecting with people online and avoiding dealing with things by scrolling mindlessly. Let's not even talk about how often I follow random trails to reading things that have no real value. Apparently, I am the kind of person click bait is created for. So I go back and forth and back and forth... over and over without ever really coming up with an answer. But then I look back on posts like this one and I am reminded what a gift it is to be able to remember these little things that I had completely forgotten. (The part about Aiden setting up office delighted me for sure!)

So maybe I will start blogging again. I know I say that about once a year, ha! But I am strongly considering it this time. I feel like I need to go through and get rid of a bunch of posts here though... all the old sponsored campaigns that I did and things like that. All I am really interested in are the memories! And the photos... so many great photos! I really need to do a post like this one from 2016 every year to collect my favorites.

So anyhow, that's where I am today. I do know that I miss posting bookish things on insta because that's how I find so many of my favorite reads. So maybe weekly happy posts here and book posts there? I don't know... we will see. What I do know for sure is that I enjoyed looking back through this space a little tonight. I am certain there will be more of that in days to come. What a beautiful life God has given me. 

And since it has been over a year since I have posted here, here is what we look like these days. Aiden has grown so much!

1 comment :

  1. I like to do a Friday Favorites post and use all the family memories/ photos/ things from our week that I want to remember... if once a week is too much I also have done sentence a day/ monthly recap posts at the end of the month with basically the same sort of idea. I love that blogging lets me catalog our lives in a way that is much easier for me to access. Best of luck to you!


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